.: The No Title Post :.

In the midst of confusions...

I've been single for so many years and I wonder why. Nothing seems to working out for me when it comes in forming a relationship.And being an Indian,it's a big Question MARK placed on you ' WHY ARE YOU SINGLE ' and the worst part when you younger sister is married and have a son and you are still searching you man.How worst things can be ??

Probably,being single or staying single is the trend but I prefer to have companion.Some might say,hey just go for an uncommitted relation but come on,being 29,uncommitted relationship is the least I'm expecting !!

The world might have changed but there's this your culture value in you that was embedded from young and you believe in the getting married,having kids,being a loving wife and caring mother,what else a women want ?despite the shopping's,diamonds or what so ever.( we never or will be satisfied).

I'm not sure about other women's desire but this is mine.Well,put the career apart,whats the point if you are the peek of your career but down the pitch when comes to relationship? I hate being single especially during Valentines and on my Birthday !! Its sad right ???

I hope before I turn 30 next year,i will end my SINGLE curse !! (fingercrossed )

.: Blame Who :.

I'm jobless currently.
I was working for this off shore share market call center.The most boring job that gives a good pay.I quit ? Nope,they didn't like me.Reason ? According to the administration,they don't want me anymore.
But the real reason,according myself,its because I started to voice out and stand for myself and partially for everyone that works there.For what I voiced out ? Work ethic,employee's well being and for these they didn't like and want ' me in the center.Oh !!
There's not Over-time,they only pay not even partial amount for medical benefits and we are only allowed to go to the panel which turn out be worse than a 'loan sharks' and no matter how sick we are,if we don't have a MC then We have to go to work.And if you are taking MC on the day you suppose to work,you have to come all the way from where you are staying to the work place,even you are dying there,you have to tell the DEATH to wait for you to submit the OFFICIAL 'thingy' that supporting your conditions.I didn't know manager's will allow team leader to work if he drunk.

And if you started to question all these issues,'they' will not like you.My mum use to,hmm always advice me not to 'talk' to much !! and now I realized why she says that. Everything seems to be changed.Back when we were in the school,they taught us to voice out our opinion and stand for ourselves but in the real world,those teachings are seems to be impossible to apply.Its like you have to keep your mouth sealed and just go on.Just ignore what ever is happening.MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.

If is it so,then why teach us the ethic thingy?? why not just teach us that,its DOG EAT DOG WORLD.Just SHUT UP and WORK.Wouldn't it be easier ??

And now,I cant get any job which I'm wondering why.Is it because I'm 29 ? or is it because I'm Indian ? its so stressful to sit at home,wondering what to do when all the days seems to be the same !!! 

BLAME WHO??

.: I Am Back :.

I am back after a very long break.So much of dramas,attitudes.

Hmm but whatever it is,I miss blogging !! 

So many things,thoughts,views and whatever it is to be updated.

Let me think from where I should start.It would be interesting.

Trust Me !!

.: Another New Month :.

Holla,been sometimes I came to my blog.I'm working now,therefore time was limited for me to blog.Was missing my blog,so here I am.

It's 1st February 2012,a month that is much awaited by most couples as we celebrate Valentine.For myself,14th February will be just like another normal day because I'm single and I understand myself that Valentine suppose to be celebrated with your partner,not friends or family because,each role has it's own special day to be celebrated.
I wonder why some can't understand that but confuse themselves.Well,different people with different view/understanding.

But I'm not being hyped about Valentine but it's Thaipusam celebration that i'm excited.This year,it's going to be Thaipusam cum holiday.All of us are heading to Genting for a short break.After a long time,we are literally as a family going out for a vacation.

This posting seems like updating my current situation.LoL !!

.: What is Broken is Better Left Broken :.

When we try to patch/glue back the broken pieces, it will not be the same.The scars or marks will be there.
Same goes to relationships.Once broken,then its better left like that.It's awkward for relationships turning into friendships because again,it's mix emotions among them two.

That's how things started to take back in Mohini's life.When things started to heal, Teddie appears back.This time he wanted to be FRIEND.Mohini was happy to see him,having him back in her life.Before he leaves her,Teddie did asked her to wait,if he returns he will accept her back.She was in that thought too.He came visit her family again,had family dinner but then He told her that it was only as Friend he came,nothing more nor less.Again,Mohini was sad,but wasn't broken because there's nothing in her to be broken again.She accepted it calmly and knew this will happen.

No one knows the pain Mohini going thru whenever she sees him.She really loved  Teddie and she hoped he would see that but he failed.Then things went quiet between them until Teddie told Mohini that he is moving to South.
She again assume he wants to get back to her.Wonder why she keeps hurting herself by assuming things  that she shouldn't.But why blame her,when Teddie brings her out,showing care and love again to her?What was his intention?He knows Mohini is sensitive and still has feelings towards him and why must he tries to get close to her and give her false hopes?

At that verge of time,Mohini's parents started to look alliances for Mohini.They want her to be married by her birthday.Mohini was confuse and was hoping nothing comes in between herself and Teddie.Her dream was dashed when a new flower blooms into Teddie's life.Both seems to be very close.She suspected that both were in relationship based on their social updates.So Mohini confronted Teddie,but He denies it.With the help of a friend,Mohini got the information about them and proved that her instinct was right after all.With a heavy heart,she wished Teddie Good luck upon his new relationship.Teddie was shocked ans wanted to talk but till today nothing happen.
At the mean time,Mohini was getting to know a guy was introduced by her family member.

What is happening to Mohini ??

.: Emotions,Complicated :.

Anyone against it? Nothing is complicated like emotions.Normally, it's always due to relationships,that creates all sort of COMPLICATION.

He came into her life 3years back.It was like other cyber relationship.She knew him thru a social sites and it was thru someone else profile that linked both of them.Both chatted till late nights,sometimes sleepless nites.They even nicked named each other,She calls him Teddie since he was BIG and CUTE and he calls him Mohini (indian term for beautiful female ghost who appears in late night). Funny,cute or scary,up to others,but to them,they were too deeply in their obsessions of LOVE.They talk endlessly everyday,every night.Both kept updating each other with their updates of daily life.The only difference was,both not together in reality but they are in their own world.That close and intimate they were.Both didnt confess as they planned to meet up.

He came,drove more than 800km to south to meet her up.Not only her but her family.Mohini was so happy and excited so does her family members.She went to ab shopping complex which Teddie was familiar.
Teddie arrived earlier than Mohini and she was in the cab on her way.Her stomach was tickling her.She was blushing with excitement.

He saw her his Mohini when she entered the mall.He called her and told her to wait right there,He came down and gave his Mohini a hug.Mohini was stunned.Her mixed up emotions turned to ONE emotions,HAPPY !! She was smiling all the way.They walked to the car park.In the car,he gave her a present.Another pleasant surprise.It was a Teddy Bear purple box,with a box of Ferrero Rocher  chocolate and GUCCI Black handbag.She was in tears of joy.She didnt expect him to pay attention to her whenever she was murmuring about something.Mohini,realized she was in love with him,but She controlled herself.She didnt want to dream and assume about something that wasnt confirm or affirm.

Mohini family met Teddie.Her parents was happy with their daughters  choice.Teddie was genuine gentleman.His manners impressed everyone in the family.For a guy,driving 800km to see him girl and her family,definitely someone with sincere intention.

After that,he proposed,both were happy but until certain days only.One day,Mohini received a call from  Teddie's engaged fiance,YES.That surprise her.Mohini was crying,but she was sure there's explanation about this.So did Teddie,It was his ex but they are not legally attached,therefore there's nothing to be worried.Teddie was glad that Mohini accepted it calmly but then when Mohini parents aware about this matter,everything changed.
Mohini's father called up Teddie and screwed him up.Teddie couldnt accept the humilation because he thought Mohini broke her promise and told her  family.

Teddie left Mohini without a word.Weeks,Mohini tried to call him,but alas Teddie didnt want to answer.She took her anger against her parents till out of control she hit her mother.Thats when she realized,it wasnt worth crying for a MAN who lefther without a word.Then one day,he mailed her,saying things went on very fast and wants to stop,then after someday,he declared they broke up.
Teddie played an important role in Mohini's life.His decision left deep impact in her.It took some times for her to get over him.

When things started to heal .....

.: Im Back :.

Yes,been sometimes I've came into my blog.Im not a good blogger.

Happy Belated New Year.
What's your new year resolution?Mine,nothing.I rather not to have one because so far none of it I took seriously.Yes,I did realize some of it hardly remember it.Action speaks louder than words,so its better for me to do than saying it.Hahaha,what a way to defense myself.

So what is next ?There's a lot for me say,maybe it's going to be tonight.Blogging not necessarily has to be serious but it has sud have some drama,spices,emotions.Today,that is what going to be.